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Crystal S Carimbocas 

#298234

ADOC Perryville Santa Cruz Unit

P.O BOX 3200 

GOODYEAR AZ 85395

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Souls

Round and round...
A vicious cycle of despair
A marry go round of trapped anguish.
Revolving door
Of doors
Entering and exiting the same door...
Numbers of captive souls getting higher
Investors benefit,swimming in a ocean of funds.
All planned out for our expected,dreadful failure...
Our souls
Their safety deposit box
Set up in their money bank.
Our lives ruined for their greedy disgusting gain.
Non - existent is their conscious
Non - existent.
We as humans...
As they reap and dig for souls
In their lens,piles of heaping dollars.
As they soundly sleep peacefully
Drifting away into a blissful dream of filthy stained dirty wealth.
Our souls doubled over in catastrophic desperation
Dodging the past
Clawing away at their reeking stained empty hearts
Breathing in the toxic air that has a stifling hold on us
Cutting our air off
Forcefully pushing us down...
Tightening its beastly slimly grip
On our minds
Crushing our spirits
On our souls
Sucking our hearts dry
Pumping in this silenced void of colossal darkness
Capsuled vessels of contamination.
Voiceless...
Segregated
Held captive from the world.
Labeled forever as "living - breathing flesh".
Free or not.
Freedom being permanently non - existent
Blotted out from our minds
But not from our hearts...
As we sleep
As we wake
The toxic air
Hold us.
It will never
Hold us down...

Only Time Will Tell

by Crystal

Only time will tell...

Feeling powerless, my thoughts full of raw emotion mixed up and turning, boiling spirals of confusional numbness, painful frustrations, sharpened dull sadness. Creepily sliding slowly down my chest, micro molecules forming a permanent chaotic silent burn... drowning my dreadful, empty cavity, seeping waves of cold fire conforming to my heart.

Wrapped in its blocky, tragic, clammy devastating grip...

Counting down this frozen, unrealistic, cycle of time. Your words, your thoughts, feelings, emotions in time. Unrealistically you, unrecognizable to my heart, to my ears, to my eyes, to our love...

Searchingly wandering through your space of time, drifting, floating through your thick airy mystical lens. Crashing into your non penetratable, lengthy, rough wall. Lonely and difficult is your wall...

Surrounding your heart, shielding your soul, separating our entwined hearts. Cutting, digging, untangling our roots. Ripping away our bonds of life, of love, our tunnel connecting our minds to spirits, lost forgiveness of love...

Picking up the pieces of my withered screaming heart. Grabbing our cold, steamy earth through my palms, embedded in my nails. Silenced droplets of struggled pain building through my suffering beat, streaming unconsciously, absent trails of stinging heavy tears.

Dripping, pouring, and soaking, deeply, madly into our earth, into your armoured wall, surrounding your shielded heart...

your hands of time...

Our hands of time?

Only time will tell...

My lonely silence...

by Crystal

Cutting through the dome of my heart...
And your luminescent wonders?
Floating up into my sky?
And I wait...
I wait for you...
Feeding for more, devouring my full, feasting
On your love, captured between my lashing
Tongue roll, savoured, deliciously around in
My air, entrapped in my sparkling rain,
Transcending through your glowing clouds...
Your swirling spirals of blue, caressing my
Air, dancing through my rain, urgently gliding
Up. Absorbing clenched... Tasting my teal
Luminescence... Entwined, combined, entangled,
Unified in our forces...
A shadow of you?
Taking control of me
Chases of darkness
My sorrows unfold.
My delusional chambers untold. Unraveling
My silk petal ribbons, unleashing the sands
Of time... Hungrily funneling.
Through my tunnels of prime, vigorously
Sucking and chewing the lands of mind...
N o o n e h e a r s m e . . .
No one answers me...
In my dream of your echoes.
I bathe in your memories, your prints in my
Pillow, your shadow in the Moon..
I want to stay
Scared to lose you
Can I stay?
Will I stay?
Or take your hand?
Wait for you?
In your lonely silence, your heart cut
Deep through the dome...
You call for me, while you wait...
You reach for me, and you wait..
I reach for you, you take my hand...
My teal luminescence reaching up
Unified in your blue sky..